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I can tell before I even begin typing this that it's going to be filled with complaints. I feel very uneasy today. I've been trying to work through my emotions and sort out why I'm feeling this way. I've decided not to keep Cici on as our nanny. I've been thinking and praying about this since yesterday. It's a tough decision. She's so nice and very competant with the kids. I'm going to make sure that she understands this has nothing to do with her job skills. We just don't need a nanny. I'm completely uncomfortable with this whole arrangement.

( More thoughts about it under here )

I took Connor to the International Club playgroup this morning. What an adventure that was. ( Read more... )

Somedays I feel like I've totally adapted to life here, and other days I feel like I'm an alien dropped on another planet. I just don't belong here. I guess this is one of those days. Strange that I'd feel this way after playgroup. I suppose it's because all those women are uber rich. I'm almost as foreign to them as I am to the Chinese. They have drivers, they live in International Communities, they send their kids to the International school. Heck, it would take more than Chris' yearly salary to send both our kids there. Craziness.

I'll post again later today after the nanny situation is resolved. I'll feel better than. The irony: she's still here right now. She's been here all day and we've been acting as if nothings wrong. We are such wimps. She's talking on her cell phone while the boys play video games.